aww Melissa, I'm sorry.

I'm finally making an effort to let him go... I've spent the last month and a half trying to forget him, but it's hard when we're still friends. And I'm sick of being compared to his ex. Our whole relationship was how I was "just like Amanda". For the record, she's CRAZY! I'm nothing like her. And the other day his exact words were "I finally found someone worse than Amanda".

why do they have to keep it low profile askffjskhgjdgljh dammit ]:

For some reason my high schools talent show, S.P.I.C.E. (Students Performing In Creative Entertainment), is coming up in a matter of weeks and I'm not nervous. I feel like this year, I'm comfotable enough with my singing and I can actually go out there and try and make the talent show, hopefully I'll be good enough and make it. I"m actually excited.

im failing math 8 thats kinda sad if u ask me...but the teacher hates me cuz i accidently called him mr fatnode...whoops!

lol i hate when people take out their moods on me.
one night they're totally happy to be talking to me and the next night they're not.
it totally messes with me. ):

i'm so glad that christmas movies are starting to play on tv...

i have been so connected with him that it makes me cry whenever he is upset.
i absolutely hate it. and the fact that there's a visible division amongst our friends,
it's making everything absolutely, ridiculously worse.
so i basically started bawling last night before our band performance
because i was so upset that he was upset enough to start crying.

i kind of wish for some stability.

I really really really want to meet him. More than anything.

I saw him again last Thursday.
He talked to me again but he had a cold.
His voice sounded really cute despite it though.
It turns out hes a lot older than me...
I couldn't stop grinning until I got back
to my room.

Why am I such a dork?

And hes really tall. I like tall boys.